KAW, That is exactly what I am trying to do. Find a better way to handle it. I don't mean to bottle it. I try to let it go by writing her e-mails and then not sending them (I have one ready to go right now). I try to see the positive in what she does and I call a friend of mine who helps me to see long term. I do very well for a while and then she does something else that makes me feel taken advantage of. I also called a local therapist but she is out until November. What I would like to do is flush all the old "stuff" from my memory so the little things would be only that instead of a reminder of all the similar things that she has done in the past.
My base problem is whether I really love her. If I did the forgiveness, trust, and understading would be much easier. I just can't keep forgiving the same thing over and over again. Not looking for justification and support for what I am doing just looking to change my thought process on it.
