Well TBone, its been a long time since we were on here-you going crazy with me, trying as hard as any one person could, to help another who was at every turn hindering her sitchuation. Now, in retrospect, I'm not sure if anything I did would have made a difference in the sitchuation I find myself in now. That's my story though and I won't subject you to the details of the last several months.
I'm sorry to see you back on here. I came over to "piecing" just to see how some of the veterans are doing. Does this ever end for any of us? Once we reach the point where we come here, do we ever get the"Fairy Tale"?
I have heard of several reconciliations on here, but do they get the Fairy Tale ending? Only they would know.
If we ever get the Fairy Tale, does it last? Didn't all of us on here think that's what we were starting out with? I'm not sure where I'm heading with this because I want "it" and I'm almost convinced that it will never happen with my H. There are two things we can do to give ourselves a reality check in our M. Number one: Look back......all the way back. Was it EVER your fairy tale? Number Two: Look forward......what are the odds of it ever being your fairy tale? I'm in a much different place than you Tbone in my M. If my H was COMMITED to our M then I would keep looking for that fairy tale no matter what I thought the odds were. That's what commitment is. I'll compare it to what our minister said about faith. Faith in God is mostly just that-faith. We believe because we have faith-not concrete proof of anything. If we had concrete proof then we wouldn't need faith. But....once in a while you get that miracle or something that happens in your life that reiniforces your faith. Something you know beyond a doubt that is of God.
Think of fairy tales Tbone. When the fairy tale becomes reality, that's where the story always ends. For all of us it begins with the fairy tale and then goes on to all of life's realities. Jobs, stress, kids, tragedies, divorces, etc.
You have a choice here, where many of us don't. Our S makes the choice for us.
I hope you can find that happiness in your M that you need.
I hope you can work through your feelings of anger and frustration at your W. I hope she is as commited to your M as you are. I hope only good things for you because you deserve to be happy. Mostly, we have to find our own happiness as you well know.
You are a very goal oriented person. Set some goals for YOURSELF that will make YOU happy. Your posts of those of unease and restlesness and basically you sound just plain stressed out. You have reason to be, you've been through ALOT. You don't strike me as someone that would try to live up to anyone else's expectations because those you have for yourself are probably higher.
You have to be true to you first and foremost.
You have been such an ENORMOUS help to many on this board. Now it's your turn. Let us be a support for you. Your answers will have to come from you, but in the midst of a storm we all need our compasses to help us see what direction we are going. Rachael
