Thanks for your reply. I think it is good that you don't hide your feelings. There is always a nice way to put it after you have cooled off. We went to Retrouvaille which teaches you to dialogue on paper and express your feelings rather than put your thoughts on the other person. ie I feel hurt, upset.... vs. you are a jerk for ....
Anyway, you HAVE choosen to love your wife by staying and choosing the right thing to do vs. allowing your feelings to dictate your actions. I would highly recommend Retrouvaille!! I hope my H will choose to love me instead of doing what FEELS good.
I will pray for you! You have been through alot!! nik