My H is searching for "happiness" also. I think the hole he has is because of his lack of faith and his growing apart from God. I obviously can't be the one to point this out, but can you share what it is that you are unhappy about? What can a W do to help? See my thread on newcomers for details of my sitch. I am very interested to know more about the "lack of happiness" others like my H are searching for. nik