I dont think I have ever posted to you before but I will throw in my 2 cents here. I have some of those same feelings as you do in my sitch. I have found that going and doing something for myself really helps. We have to make happiness for ourselves.
Maybe in your sitch your W is not ready to admit to anything yet in the R. When that happens it is very hard to deal with. Take some time off to recharge the batteries and get back to a more positive mind set.
