Ready to GAL...Drop the Rope...Detach..2...

[ddstartingover]

I have found some peace. And, I'm not going to hope that I made an impression on him now. I honestly don't know if there's anything that can reach him------as many say here, the MLC'er is an alien and I don't know that they're capable of understanding anything but what they want in the minute. I can only hope that he's at least filed it away somewhere to understand when he reaches the other side of this.

I know that I am a good person. I know that this isn't all my fault. Having the knowledge, the proof, of OW has given me that much. It has given me myself back. I have spent 2 years painting a picture of a horrible person in my mind, doubting if I have ever done any good in my life. Now I know it's not me.

I know it's up to H now. To choose OW, his family, or nothing. My family is too important to not still be able to want to keep our family together, but I know that if H doesn't choose us, it's his loss. I still don't know how to handle the fact that I know about OW but he still won't admit it. I'm still a little numb about that one.

Part of me thinks that if I can, I should keep it to myself until he makes his choice final. If he chooses his family and me, it will need to be addressed.

ImLin, SteelersFan, ButterflyMom................I could use some input/support when you can.

I did some reading in my DB book again today. Michelle says 37% of men have affairs............in a BILLION years, I could never have believed that my H would be in that 37%.