no honey, it won't be like this forever)))))))))))))))))) you will be stronger and happier, I promise, God is good, he will help you heal and you will go on. This is the hardest part, as your brain/heart are TRYING to accept what it is / will be, for years you have had this pict of how your life ought to be, now new paths will need to be forged and this is hard, none of us planned for the floor to drop from under our feet. Acceptance is the hardest part, I think it took me a few months to totally accept what has happened, that stbx isnt' the man I married, that my life could and would be a happy one without him, that I could live above and beyond the hurt.
Weird how his family blames him, but you know what? maybe they suspect or know something, well, he is reaping what he sow. The last thing you needed was more grief, I'm surprised how awful your IL's have been, being angry about how they feel about this, yea, that sure helps things! jeez!
You are amazing and I thank God for your good heart about not unmasking him to his parents even as they give you a hard time, he doesnt' deserve that but in the eyes of God youve' done the right thing. My poor MIL is just heartbroken, as she sees her son destroy anything good in his life, disregarding her feelings and just dragging her along his destructive rollercoaster, she is in poor health and this does not help. Bless your heart. You will do great HP)))))))))))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
