Today, busy day. Busy days are always good. I will be at a neighborhood pool all day with my son...no time to let my mind go to bad places. H has been backing off with some physical contact because he knows it is bothering me. But he is still looking at me with love, and it is making me feel more at ease. He gets frustrated with my depression and the way I want to hide upstairs in the bedroom all the time. But, I really just need to do this to make it through my day right now. I'm reading Eat, Pray, Love. I am really liking that book. I need to get at peace with my thoughts. I've stopped losing weight and I am eating better so that is good. What can I do today that will help my R with H? Hmmmm....I think I will pick up the house so when he comes home it is all clean. He hates it when it is messy. He knows that means I'm really depressed which makes him depressed.
