Hi, I'm new to the forum.

[The Wifey]

(((Jeff, Bliss)))

I backslid last night. I had had two rather large glasses of wine by the time he made it in around 9. I told him I didn't want to sleep in the other room. He said I didn't have to if I didn't want to.

I also asked him indirectly about if he'd heard from Ginny. He said she contacted him by email. I know it was wrong to ask and he got very worried that I was going to email or call her. I assured him I wasn't going to but that I was worried.

Even if he doesn't feel that way toward her, he has been her confidant and that creates an emotional attachment. I said I didn't like to think he'd have someone encouraging him to give up. He replied that he had no interest in taking on any woman's problems or being their hero. She is just a friend he'd had a long time and they talk. And he added that no one is encouraging that and he is making up his own mind.

So, we cuddled and had some time together. It was left a bit unsettled and I know I probably stepped all over the DB line.

Today starts the 180's. I just have to. I realize that though he considers us separated that he is coming home to me every night. He sees me and talks to me every day. That is much preferable to him being gone.

I think tonight I will be busy. I have a take-home test to do for my math class and I'm supposed to meet someone for an icecream cone around 7.

There's always the library if I need it, too. Or I could stay in and get some cleaning done. I don't know.

I am so grateful that today is a new day. You guys are great. I need to get with the program ala Smart Cookie. I know I can, I know I have to.