Hope4us struggle, part 7

[Hope4us]

Thanks everyone. You guys are a big help and I really needed that right now.

Yesterday W starts IMing me at work and we have a pretty nice conversation. When we get home it continues but then about 7:30 she gets up (we were on the deck talking) and goes inside without saying a word. I go in a bit later and the rest of the evening she is very quiet. When I went to bed I told her I'd see her in the morning and she didn't respond.

I know...Patience, patience, patience, but this little pull back on her part really has me down. I know my expectations were too high after this weekend, but it seemed like we were making such progress and now her pull back has really hit me hard.

I'm just so tired.....I went to bed fantasing about just ending it and getting on with my life, but then I think of my kids and how much better S16 seems to be doing and I can't think of going there....yet.....

How much longer am I going to have to put up with this bullchit before she makes a decsision one way or another?