I tried to reply earlier, but I lost my post and was too frustrated to retype it. Thanks for stopping by my thread. You sound good, all things considered.
I noticed you signed up for the KLA Workshop. I decided to sign up too, you know, try something different. I feel pretty lost right now, and frustrated and it's oh so tempting to just give up, and maybe in the end that's what I'll end up doing. But I know I'm not quite there - something is telling me to hang in there a bit longer.
Yeah that glimpse into the abyss was pretty scary - I really did wonder who I was talking to by the campfire on Sat night. H was like a stranger, the things he was saying. I was thinking the whole time, "Do you HEAR yourself? Do you KNOW what you sound like?" Though the time we spent together was very pleasant (including ML), I kept wondering who was this person I was with, and is he the same way w/ OW, or does he have still another persona for her? I was also thinking that H has definitely retreated back into the tunnel. How far & for how long this time is very hard to tell...
Today I was feeling very low. H hasn't called me since Sun afternoon, I didn't expect him to call that night, but hopefully sometime today. The longer it goes the more anxious I get b/c that is how I felt when he would disappear b/f when he was w/ OW. So I figure he is w/ OW - it just makes logical sense. I doubt she knows H is still coming to me for sex, though. Would I love to tell her.
H is so very, very confused and messed up, I fear that he will never find his way out of the tunnel.
FA
What does not destroy me, makes me stronger.
FA:43, H:42 D:7 M:10 yrs, T:24 yrs EA:?, PA:1/06 S:3/07 EA/PA ongoing Aborted attempt to move home 07/08
