ARRGG!!! I just got a $300 electric bill, it hasnt been paid since May. I tried calling H, but he wont answer. Why is he treating my like Ive done something wrong. I know all about going dark, but this is serious, I dont have the money to pay it. Why is he acting like hes mad at me, I havent spoken to him in weeks, I am so frustrated right now. Him ignoring my phone calls hurts so much.

Hes the one who said he wanted to always be my friend, and Hes the one who said he ILYBINILWY, if he has any feelings at all I dont understand why hes treating me this way, I wasnt going to ask him to come home, I just wanted to not get my lights shut off, I cant believe this. Why do I feel like Im being punished?

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...