Did have to talk to W today about some financial things today. No problems there, W said about finding D11 a babysitter while playing in a softball tournament this weekend. Told her I would ask my parents. W said that she was not sure about if they would or not with the difficulties and possible D. Told her it was not a prob since I know how my parents feel. W does feel guilty about not being able to have "real" kids with me or my parents grandkids.
After talking with my mom, no real prob. watching D11 this weekend, I called W back. Some other things had come up also, death in the town we have a house at. Had some other things going on so it was a few hours later I called W.
Talked about the death ect. I was coming back from getting gas to the SO (sheriff's office). Told W I had talked to mom about watching D11 and it was no prob. I said my parents told me even if W and I D, they still love her and the girls and they were always welcome. There was a long silence and I had thought I lost service on the cellphone. Asked if she was still there and W said yes. Told her I was back at SO and had stuff to do and have a good night.
Knowing my W that hit her pretty hard. Especially with the guilt she carries around about not having kids with in herself.
Still not knowing exactly what I am going to say when we have another "talk" about LS. It is an impasse and she is going to do what she is going to do. So, as far as me goes, nothing will be gained or lost from another talk. Well, maybe something gained depending on what her mood is. Just playing it by ear with her at this point.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
