You see I'm not the one making the contact she is. She comes to the house. She comes announced. Then she shows up dressed like a hotty, and she leaves pretty much saying, "haha you can't have me, and I look so good."
I don't call her. I don't text her. However when she does contact I do tend to linger too much.
Really I don't think any of this matters. I don't even think she remembers anything. I think she only hears what she wants to hear or what she does hear is not right.
Again today asking me when daughters game is, after I told them all last night it is Weds at 6. I talked to MIL said I just want to be sure you know I'm coming to get the kids tomorrow after work to go to D's game.
Yes my life is filled with anxiety everytime I know she is coming. When she has to drop the kids off to go to work. However she assumes I will be here and she does not bother to discuss if I'm hear.
Now I'll do anything for my kids. I'm not going to be vindictive one day and not be here.
Man, I think lastnight I just had a bulleye on from the devil. I got it from her sister. I got it from her. I got it from her friend. I got it from her sister because her sister and her were fighting over something. So the shedevil tried to drag me into her pit. Then I mention to my wife that her friends sticks up for me, and I immediately get hammered by her friend for that.
Yes I call my SIL the shedevil because IMHO she caused more trouble in my marriage than you can shake a stick at. Filled my wife's head up with so much bull crap I can't even get through.
Now my wife is just forgetful... I don't buy it? Is she really forgotten from day to day.
I wish she would forget the bad. Focus on the good. Has she forgotten all the good? Has she really lost her mind? Is she really in the fog that bad?
If I'm the lighthouse I need to become wise and wise quick.
Last night my other cousin was talking to me. He said he didn't want to tell me but she was asking about me. How I was? He gave her fluff. He is living. Then he told her look I have to pick a side, and I'm not picking you. So don't call or text me anymore because I'm on Phil's side, and it would not be fair to him.
Really my cousin did't help during WAS live in stage. I talked to him everyday for hours on end. He also talked to her at least a couple times a week. She even went to his house late at night a few times. Which really got my imagination freaked out. But he played both sides of the fence. I told him to knock it off then.
Yes anxiety before interaction because I never know which wife is going to show up.
One day maybe she'll start taking responsibilty for the failure. It seems like I just keep taking all the blame. It's tiring its exhausting. It's a marathon. Someday I hope to laugh all this off.
Now tonight I'm calm, because there hasn't been any contact except the couple of text today. I was happy with her just texting back hi. Then hours later she asks about the game.
You know I felt pretty good all day. I crashed a little before dinner, but I snapped out of it again. I knew she was going to get off work soon, and I was just thinking please do not come home and mess with me tonight.
Now the kids are down their grandparents. I'm home alone, and GOD only knows what she is doing. I trust in him.
