Hi guys, yeah, Im on the rejoice ministries mailing list. I really like the emails, they seem to show up when I need them most! And I read the books, rereading them, and I found some new ones too. I dont text him often, just when Im feeling fiesty, and like making a bad choice, maybe 3 times in the last month. I know I shouldnt. Ive written him a few letters, I take them to the beach and burn them, I gave him one when this whole things started to go down. But Im not begging him anymore, I know that doesnt work, and it makes me feel bad about myself.

Ive been feeling pretty good about myself lately, going out and being gawked at helped a little too. But part of that is, and this just sucks, I havent wanted to ML this much in YEARS!! And I dont have any real outlet! **$#(!#*!#($AE@# grrr. Boy If he came home right now! I'd have something to give him alright. I feel like a 17 year old boy!

I crashed my motorcycle today, well, fell over on it more, I was trying to down shift from 2nd gear to 1st and turn and the shifter fell off under my foot, then I ran off the pavement. I guess I couldnt steer and figure out what the hell just happened underneath my foot. Its a lot to pay attention to! And its a whole lot more physical than I ever thought it would be. But its a freaking blast! Even though I was the only one to crash, it was okay, just a little embarrassing, but everyone else was messing up too, just not as bad as me! And, as far as Im concerned it was equipment failure, not me! Im sticking to that story anyway...
(((Christa and Cindy)))

Last edited by bluerain; 07/16/08 01:03 AM.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...