I sometime wonder if going dark is maybe the wrong thing to do here? Even though the W did call 1 time it has only been once. Maybe she has already checked out for good? This sucks so bad I just want to go up and shake her and just tell her to snap out of it already and lets start working on us! But that would not be to wise now would it!
I am almost to a point where it feels like I don't care anymore and almost ready to file myself, but she already has the retainer on her L.
I think the worst part of all this is I somehow have to tell my S that I can not keep my promise to him. He told me to promise that I would come back to my "real" home with him,D, and mommy! I am not sure how to tell him if all of this falls through, maybe I should make the W tell him.
I do love my W unconditionally and have actually tried to hate her during this whole process, but I can't. I just see all the good that she has in her true self, but as we all know she is not acting her true self. But even with the OP I can't bring myself to hate her. Sure I get mad as hell but that goes away after a while. Just don't know what to do anymore besides just getting on with my life and hope that one day she will come out of her fog! I know it sounds retarded but I am going to play the bachelor for quite a while, not going to get hooked up right away as I just don't feel comfortable yet and won't for some time, unless I meet a sugar momma I see posts where people have been apart for years and get back together, always a possibility. I am not saying I am going to wait for the opportunity but it is still in my head that is always there.
Just me rambling again, getting ready to go to a job interview this evening. Have a good night all
I see posts where people have been apart for years and get back together, always a possibility. I am not saying I am going to wait for the opportunity but it is still in my head that is always there.
