this2shallpass- You are welcome, and I am glad that it helps you understand by reading my posts. You gave me a lot of food for thought. Thank you. Right now, I am thinking only of getting to the Retrovaille weekend with my H. That's all I can think of.
Sandi- Thank you as always for your words. Everything you say helps me so please don't stop. I appreciate all of the support you are offering.
Puppy- I think Sandi was asking if I had talked to H about my problem of my feelings for H, not OM. But, yes, I have decided to wait to talk about the OM with H until we are on sturdier ground if ever. He and I discussed this. We both know if he wants to talk about it he can in the future, could be anytime really. We just wanted to wait a bit since we were both so vunerable. As for the contact I had with OM, I will not disclose this to him...unnecessary. Like I said before, if he finds out I will take full blame and any consequences that will follow. In my heart, I know that this is not something I should do, tell him about the contact I mean. I did talk to a priest about it, and he also said it is between God and I. We have bigger issues to solve.
Update: Feeling tired and blah all day. Last night H wanted to give me a hug and it angered me. Why is it angering me? He just angers me still. He doesn't have to be doing anything wrong and it gets me all riled up. I need to start focusing on all the good things about him, but I keep running into everything he does making me pissed off!!! 3 more days until Retrovaille.
