You're feeling fear becasue of the uncertainty and a you starting to recognize what you need - I can understand that. I suspect that at the start of this whole ordeal, your prime feeling was again fear. You dealt with it then and I am sure you can deal with it now.
Remember to believe in yourself that you can get through whatever comes your way.
Also, isn't it that your pre-A M is gone? Are you not looking to rebuild rather than repair so as to ensure the best possibility to make things the best that they can be? You believed you could do it all this time - hold on to that as you go and quite possibly your W will follow.
No guarantees but you have to believe! Try to dismiss the thoughts because you cannot do anything with them now anyway.
LIS
M45 WW 43 D17/S14/D11
ILYB Jan 08 PA Conf Feb 08 OMW / OM contacted S Jan / 09
No one ever has, or ever will, escape the consequences of their actions.
