Kelly - WHEW - I feel like I'm in therapy right now. Getting pretty emotional - had to close the door to my office. Thanks for the support - I REALLY need it right now.
That's all I've been trying to do - keep my family together. It been the basis of every decision I've made. I'm so afraid that we are going to break up - not really for me - moreso for the boys. I don't want them to have to go through that. They don't deserve that. I don't want a life where I can't be with them every minute of every day. I would do anything for them. I love her that much too. I'm trying to believe she is still in there somewhere - that's why she won't leave the house. That's why she keeps pulling me back.
Thanks for shouting at me.
M 43 W 44 M 17 T 22 S16,12,9 Bomb 2/05/08 I served her 1/06/09 S'd 3/15/09 D'd 12/21/09
"Tough times don't last, tough people do." --My Dad to me years ago, me to my boys now.