Thing is, the closer I get to my goal, the more these thoughts come into my head that I'm not sure it's what I want. I just don't know. It's like everytime we have a good stretch I allow myself to think of the enormity of it all and I'm not sure it's what I want. I've been fighting this for so long and have got NOTHING for so long that it's hard to think that I'll ever get what I want/need. I mean, she's been so self-absorbed for 16 or so months now that I just have a hard time remembering what my real W was like. And now that this has happened I've recognized some things pre-A that I KNOW she needs to change for me to be happy, and I'm just not sure she'll make those changes.
And that scares me.
Hope4us
Me - 49, W 49 S22 & S18 Dday 9/4/07 W claims NC 4/7/08 8/29/09 - Divorce Busted. Lots to work through, but we're going to make it.
