One light..much of what NMD says is true. The key now is to stop the analysis. Stop trying to figure it all out.
What happened is now part of your history. Remember, but, close the door on it and go forward. It was not failure but a lesson in life. Grow from it. The first line in the book The Road Less Travelled is "Life is difficult.". We all expect an easy road. It just isn't that way.
Close this chapter and open a new one. As my buddy frank_d says, "you'll be OK".
FIB
FIB,
Life is difficult...... A simple AND brilliant observation.... Had I read that a couple years ago.... I would have agreed it is tough in other areas EXCEPT M..... I thought I was M to the "right" woman..... Man, I have NEVER been so wrong in my life....
OL... You just really need to believe God has something for you....
I really attempted to analyze every possible angle when this first happened.... I thought.... If I focus on becoming even more successful.... If I..... If I...... It was driving me crazy...
I learned that what had happened happened.... It was over and done.... I just needed to trust God He had a better plan than I ever could imagine... Way easier said than done....
Once I had some patience, God really started to show me things.... He showed me the truth about Kim.... Who she really was.... That was tough to deal with.... This woman that I loved and adored was not who she really was...
I had serious doubts the woman I wanted to be with even existed anymore.... I simply wanted a Christian woman who understood what M was really about.... M has many ups and downs.....
I remember talking with my friend, Teresa... She asked, "Do you trust God to send you the right woman?" I said, "At this point, no." Well, a couple of days later, God dropped my new W into my life like a meteor from above........ The rest is history... The funny thing is she did not think she would ever find a guy like me...
Take Care,
NMD
"Chains do not hold a marriage together. It is threads, hundreds of tiny threads which sew people together through the years. That is what makes a marriage last --more than passion or even sex!" - Simone Signoret