Wow...my thread locked on me in the middle of the night
Here's a recap of my last post...
Hi Sunnyokie...
NOt sure just who was posting earlier today under my name ...
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It took me many years to be comfortable in my own skin....You sound like you're doing really well.
Guess it was me; remember, I said moments of feeling comfortable! Right now, for example, I'm feeling very uncomfortable; 'fraid I let Mr. Expectation take a seat at my table today (d$mn me and my sliver of hope!) and I know realistically that he has no place there... (I also keep engaging in self-defeating behaviors in my goal to shed weight... )
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is there a reason you left off that H was having an affair?
Yea, this was the first time we had any kind of convo at all about things, so I just felt that it wasn't time yet... but I feel like it will come out at some point. I do not intend to give H a total pass of that; especially since they know her and her Ss. But right now, we're still in such a strange place...H is here again tonight; he has only really stayed at the apt a few nights since he actually got access to it...most of his 'away' nights were actually at OWs.
Actually, I think H heading over to OWs on Sat night is what got this latest drama going...friends of OW threw a big 40th bday party for her, and she was definitely pushing for H to come (to my knowledge, this would be his 'coming out' as her b'friend ...1st social event in that kind of setting) Looks like he was vague about going, using excuse that he had promised S12 he would watch movie with him(us), and then let her know later that he was heading to her place (instead of to meet her at the party)... guessing big fuss ensued over that. H wound up at our house early (as usual, 5:30am, since S12 is still in the dark) and hadn't slept, guessing H wound up at his apt for the night...
As I said above, I let Mr Hopeful Expectation linger around yesterday and today for a while, but I've made myself send him packing... I don't think this latest drama will amount to anything as far as i'm concerned. It is interesting, though, that H is still having such a hard time really making the break. I don't delude myself that it's about me; it's about Ss and other parts of his life that I guess he's starting to realize will be gone... If I had to guess about the current drama, when push came to shove, H was not as ready as he thought to be that public about the two of them... but they are already back in touch again (looong phone convo tonight...actually surprised he stayed here...)
Wow, it's late...off to try to sleep... gotta be fresh for my IC tomorrow...and 'doing work' on me!!
