D - You are in such a good place, just got to believe it yourself. I think you think it and maybe want reassuring, maybe SC could be the person to offer you that ?
Hang in there buddy, if you happy in yourself, the changes you've made, your getting there. I'm real happy for you and hope your W starts to show she has noticed soon too.
Enjoy the breaks. They are a good time to show W how much you've changed as she will then witness it for 24 hrs a day for a few days.
All I have asked my W for is friendship, yet she seems unable to even do that right now, so I envy you big time !!!
That is it excatly what I want reassurances. I know she can not and will not give them to me but that does not stop me from wanting them. I bury these feeling deep but on this board is where I express them, that way when I am home I am happy go lucky.
Again this is her time and I will keep telling myself that. I do enjoy the down time and the trip to NY and the beach should be fun.
I'll tell you what, you just keep doing what your doing. Keep coming her and venting when you want..when you get pissed and upset, come here and my head will be laying upon a platter awaiting your 2x4's...I'd rather you beat my arse up than take it out upon your W and backslide.
let this go for a few days...go have fun with your W and kids.
