Today July 15th, 2008 in my 19th Wedding Anniversary...
I am back to work today after what seemed like a month long weekend. Last night we had our "dialogue" and it went great. I revealed to Wife that up to the time we arrived at Retro I have been rehearsing over and over how to tell her I wanted a divorce. I feel she did not realize how close WE were. I revealed that that all of these years she has never had a picture of me on her desk, in her screen savers (has family pics but none of me). And how this has made me feel like I do not exist. (You may not have noticed but all of the pictures of my son's and my trip purposely had none with just him in them).)
This "dialoguing" is sooo important. I can feel the difference when we have our time as opposed to just being around each other. It's like coming up for air. (Dialoguing). And then I hold my breath and jump back into the muck that our marriage had become. This morning I left a message on our note board for my wife:
Wife, This is the first time in a long time that I can really say
Happy Anniversary Love ya
Dr LOve
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
