I'm so glad to hear from you again. Remember, there are football tickets to at least one game coming your way, so I'll e-mail you when they come in, ok? I'll be catching up on your sitch very soon. I'm glad you are back and I hope things are well or at least going semi-favorably for you.
Yes, I'm still very, very guarded. However, W is softening. Quite a bit, it seems. Phoenixdeax was so correct b/c she has been instigating conversations w/ me that haven't always been about "business."
Take today. I was w/ D and had told W that I may need to drop off D later b/c the tile guys were coming to do some repairs and clean the tile so we can have it looking good for sale. W sent a text and I told her the tile guys had just arrived and asked her if she wanted to come and pick up D at the house.
W hasn't been to the house since around Feb. 10th or so, and she's been hesitant to come by b/c she knows it will make her emotional, especially since she really misses our dogs.
Well, she came over, got emotional loving on the dogs and watched me finish painting D's fingers and toes before they left. I asked her if she wanted to get a few things while she was here and she went into D's room to get some books to take w/ her then we walked out to her car.
Well, I didn't have shoes on and I'm carrying D, so I'm moving quickly across the scorching midday Scottsdale pavement. We got to her car on the curb and I stood w/ D on the neighbor's grass. W got her sweatshirt out of the car and laid it on the ground for me to stand on so my feet wouldn't burn as I told D goodbye. Who said chivalry is dead?
Anyway, they left and she talked to me later when D called for me and we talked about a rash on D's butt and one of the dogs. She is more polite than usual and even said "thank you" in a tone that sounded like she meant it when we were on the phone.
So, are we there yet? Not by a long shot. In fact, I'm still thinking we'll probably get divorced and if we do get back together, we'd remarry. We'll sell the house and split up the assets. I'm pretty certain of that.
I will definitely be guarded and I'm planning on having us stay apart even if we are working on reconcilation. My therapist is concerned W may try and trap me by being sweet and acting as if she wants me back in an attempt to frame me for something that would get her full custody of D. I'm praying that isn't the case, but I'll be prepared for the worst until I'm proven otherwise by six to 12 months of consistent behavior on the part of my W. Then I'll be able to trust her again.
For now, I'll just keep taking care of me and moving my life forward. Who joins me will be revealed in time.
