HELP - Wife Is Focused On Divorce For OM

[Scott123]

I've been thinking more and more about how I should manage my
pages/blog online. I know music and lyrics have been helpful
for both of us in expressing emotions/feelings that we were
not comfortable saying face to face.

I could start posting some music that relates to my feelings.

For example - Right Here from Stained:

I know I’ve been mistaken
But just give me a break
And see the changes that I’ve made
I’ve got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all
And throw them in my face

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I’d still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting

I hope you’re not intending
To be so condescending
It’s as much as I can take
And you’re so independent
You just refuse to bend
So I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I’d still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting

I’ve made a commitment
I’m willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Why can’t you just forgive me
I don’t want to relive all the mistakes
I’ve made along the way

But I always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say
To keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
We always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If I chose to walk away
Would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep me right here waiting
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What do you think, do you think that would push or do you
think it would pull? I know from the past it really
seemed to pull her in and get her to re-think
what she was doing. She seems way more set on
divorce now though and this OM is right in the
picture.

I know one of my friends posted a comment to something I
wrote that got me kind of annoyed. It was something along
the lines of she's not worth my time and I should just
walk away and not look back etc. I did not respond to
it yet. I almost replied something nasty, but then
I thought maybe I'll just delete it. Now though I think
it might be an opportunity for me to defend my W in public.

This is like the only avenue of communication I have right
now with her and in a way I think it's good because it's
non-confrontational, she can absorb it all on her own time,
she can go and re-read it any time and she does not have to
respond to any of it. She does not even know that I know
she is on my sites.

I really want her thinking about me a lot instead of focusing
on this OM. I know by her actions that she is thinking about
me and reading every single day. Not one day goes by that she
is not looking at my stuff and most days it's all through
the day. Right when she gets up, when she comes home, before
she goes to bed, sometimes in the middle of the night etc.

So - I have this opportunity in front of me now to show her
my real feelings. In reality, I can talk and pretty much
guarantee that she will listen and I don't have to worry
about how she will respond because she can't respond.

I also have the opportunity to talk to other people and have
her "overhear" the conversation so to speak. This can also
be advantageous especially like the above comment about
defending her.

So how can I best use all this to my advantage beyond the
typical GAL type posts especially in relation to this OM?

- Scott