G, so glad everything seems like it's going so well for you! I kind of don't understand your W though. Do you think she's confused--I know you aren't!!! Karen
hehe - I'm in a perpetual state of confusion, Karen.
I don't see W enough to know what is going on in her life or through her head right now, but if I were to guess I think W feels guilt for her A, and remorse for how it has affected me. But I don't think she feels that M with me is something that would work, despite still having feelings for me.
Does it seem that everything is going well for me? Funny that it doesn't feel that way. But I know what you mean. Despite sadness for the sitch, I am not the mess I used to be. Still looking forward!
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You know that swimming is keeping you on your toes and soon it will help with sleeping at night. Bet you didn't do much of that for a while after the bomb!
Healing is slow, and sometimes hardly noticable, but it comes to us a little bit more everyday. Before you know it, less and less of our day is spent on someone who acted badly and treated us like crap. Then oneday you understand exactly what they did and that it was never about us. That little tidbit g is our lease on a new life!
Thanks for your comments Beth. I can see how much better I am dealing with being without W. And yes, loss of sleep post-bomb was a bit of a problem... But you know, if what W did wasn't about me, not about something I can acknowledge and something I can improve in myself -- then I'm not really that interested in what it was about.
One of the reasons I have been able to get over this debacle is being able to see some of the things in myself that contributed to things. At least that gives me some reassurance that if I am able to address those successfully that my future doesn't have to keep repeating the past. That it can be better and that I can share that better future with someone wonderful.
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