Drawing a line and grabbing the seeds!

[cire2]

Almost a year since X hit me with a RO and I do think of her often. I wonder how she's doing and I can't help but have a curiosity if she thinks of me.

On another note, the GF and I have hit a bad place. As i've posted a bit, things between us have been weary of late. She has treated me badly and been more moody than i've seen anyone!

Last wed. we went to dinner and had a wonderful time just to have it end with her crying and I even heard the word suicide. Now this scares me and I was calm and quiet but that just seemed to aggravate. What seemed to set it off is her depression being out of work and all the circumstances that come with that.

Forward to thur. afternoon and fri. morning, i'm working out of town and we text quite a bit. Everything is going much better and back on track it seems. That was short lived of course.

Her depression starts back up and texting turns to "find a normal girl" as she thinks she's damaged goods. Of course I want to fix her feelings (I know BAD) and I find myself back at square one trying to convince her how she should feel, and we can get through this together.

2X4 to myself!!!

Here comes sat. afternoon as i'm coming home and the texting continues but starts to get bad and weird. I am still trying to push my view and of course its not being received at all. She even starts to refer to herself as a 12 yr. old girl and i'm to old. YIKES! Nasty really starts in the more I try and calm her down and there are three more references by her as to being a 12 yr. old.

It ends with me asking her if she plans on paying me back the money I loaned her and her responding with something to the effect, F NO I slept with you and never got my moneys worth and you owe me!

CRINGE, that hurts!

I have no more contact but I get a text picture mail from her at 12:30am this morning. When I look at the pic on my way to work it's a pic of some dudes d!#* with the caption "suck on this one" , slam again.

Painful to say the least.

A few friends tell me to not respond at all and I have to agree, WTH could I possibly say. No contact since that pic but i'm afraid of what she might do or say next.

cire (ugh)