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Or am I the only freak that feels this way


Freak #2 right here. \:\)

I have always missed my H more when he is right in front of me, spending time with us as a family, then I do when he is gone. At times, I feel more lonely in a roomful of 50 people (H included) then I do by myself in bed at night.

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Going dark doesn't seem appropriate and I'm doing well not persuing her. Where do I draw the line?


I wish I knew.

Are you comfortable with your life. Happy most of the time, truly happy? Can you find joy and the good things in life despite the yuckiness? I think that's a good start.

As Sara on here says "There's nothing wrong with being physical/having sex with your spouse", but you have to be comfortable, and have no expectations, or at least know what your W's expectations are.

I totally understand this post, hope my thoughts portray that. lol