Thanks, Julia. I think, in his very confused mind, he's sort of been waiting for me to say to him, let's get a legal S, and then I would do all the work, and he could continue running on his merry way, setting bridges on fire behind him, or "disappear" as he said he wished he could do out of recognizing how far he's fallen.
It's just not going to be that easy, and he has a lot of difficult realizations about that coming, and I am sorry for him about it, because he is so far in denial it's not funny. I'll agree to move forward if he wants, but I'm not going to lift a finger to help the process along.
Me letting things up to his control/direction would be a huge 180 for me.
He gets back tomorrow, and I think I will contact him and just tell him I want to see him when he has some time. I think I am prepared for whatever he could say to me, and I look forward to finding out where his head is at, no matter where it is at. Some information is better than none at all. Plus, I will take your advice and try to look my very best with a PMA and confidence.
By the way, you guys have made me feel so much better, I think I'm going to go for a run, which I had been so good about but neglecting and slacking off on this week.
Much love and gratitude and (((hugs)))!
It is in the shelter of each other that people live.--Irish proverb
