All settled in 250 miles apart

[JWS]

No I really don't, but would love some. The last few times we have seen each other it has been easier. The first couple times however, i felt everything in the world bubbling up from the pit of my stomach and jumped out of my mouth. Then I realized (mostly with Twindads help) that no words from me can fix anything right now. Nothing I say will be taken how it is meant in my mind, and even how it is in my mind is not what she needs or wants. This is up to her to make right and me to be patient enough for that to happen.

That’s what I believe but living it is harder. I thought I might actually bite off my tongue last time I saw her. I just try and find my happy place and stay there. Witch was hard at times. I would highly recommend being in a car or another place that you are trapped and cannot walk away. Trust me on that all most all of the times I spoke out was trapped in a car when i wanted to walk away but could not.