Quick update: We took last week off so the family went away for 3 nights. It was a good trip, with its stressful points (traveling with a 2 year old can do that to you!), but overall it went well. I think we're working together better as a team these days.
I still stress when I can't reach h during the day or when he doesn't call me. I wonder if he's where he's supposed to be or if he's off gambling or doing something else he doesn't want me to know about. This is a huge trust issue, which I need to find out how to deal with before I lose my mind. I'm planning on bringing this, and the porn issue, up in C next week. Also, he still has alot of stuff back at the condo, which he's supposed to be out of by the end of the month. That's bugging me too.
Despite those grumblings, we have alot of positives, so I will TRY to focus on those: * we're going to C next week, after a 6 week break * we've been working on redoing our bathroom together. It's going slowly (*&^*! wallpaper removal!), but I'm happy he is willing to help out. * he's been helpful with cooking, dishes, etc. * lots of hugs, handholding, etc. * he's here and trying to work on us
