Well new week.. i feel great, look great and am trying to think great... W and I have not talked serious since she broke down crying last Wednesday. We walked the dogs and shared a few laughs yesterday..i still cannot see how she would change her mind, even tho she looked me in the eyes for the first time in a longtime yesterday
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
They are confusing, aren't they? She is spying my dear, that is it. She wants to see what you are up to. It is similar to Saturday morning, why did the H call me at 8:30 in the morning and when I called him back, came to my apartment less than 20 minutes later? They want to see what you are doing, who you are with, who you are talking to. It is the "I don't want you right now, but I don't want you to go anywhere either because something tells me I am wrong about this whole thing" syndrome, methinks...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
They are confusing, aren't they? She is spying my dear, that is it. She wants to see what you are up to. It is similar to Saturday morning, why did the H call me at 8:30 in the morning and when I called him back, came to my apartment less than 20 minutes later? They want to see what you are doing, who you are with, who you are talking to. It is the "I don't want you right now, but I don't want you to go anywhere either because something tells me I am wrong about this whole thing" syndrome, methinks...
She had 2 days to "spy" on me when i was away in Oregon. next week I am gone 5 days to Washington State.. i guess i better make sure i don't have anything there.. Lord only knows why she is spying.. don't forget we live in the same home (still)...
I just find it odd, why does she care what i do.. she told me she wants a D .. i don't know if she "gets" it yet.. I sure do..
I just keep doing what I am doing.. W makes comments like.. you won't have a problem finding a girlfriend ..
Again yesterday we walked the dogs together and it was ALMOST like nothing ever happened. My mom wants to talk to W but finds she likely would just cry .. she is gathering strentgh.. W is a pisces like mom, and would also likely cry.
Just because the spouse walks away does not mean they don't still care. Its easier when you are on the outside looking in. But when the spouse still pays attention, even in small ways, that means they do still care. I tell you, I would not want to get back with my XH. But I can't help feeling a twinge of jealousy when he is dating someone. Don't ask me why. It just is.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Just because the spouse walks away does not mean they don't still care. Its easier when you are on the outside looking in. But when the spouse still pays attention, even in small ways, that means they do still care. I tell you, I would not want to get back with my XH. But I can't help feeling a twinge of jealousy when he is dating someone. Don't ask me why. It just is.
I do not want to sound arrogant, rather i am very self-confident. I am a good looking guy with Alot to offer.. and I know if this is truly over, i will be able to offer alot to the next woman i meet. This being said DB and DR ultimately will have helped me overcome alot of obstacles to make myself happy with myself. Does that make sense?
Lola, Are you D'd now? I think it would make me a little jealous of W if she dated. I think she will be even more so if I did. She sure makes efforts to find out what I am doing..
Nearly 2 months into this mess.. i have done a 180 on myself BIGtime..and I am proud of that
I also do not think W found this site, she might go looking into this site when i am away for a week however.. she does know about 390 i spent on coach, and she said" why would you pay for something where someone will tell you what YOu want to hear"
I am not D'd, my H and I are still married, but I was married before for a long time. My XH and I did everything we were supposed to in terms of C, IC, MC, all of the above, and in the end, we both realized it was better that we split. I care about him, but don't love him, and that feeling is mutual. But I think it is a human emotion to be a little envious when your X is having a great time and you feel like something the cat dragged in!!! I keep remembering that whenever I see my H, that it is the positive that draws them back...
I don't think it is arrogant at all, its self confidence. I consider myself an attractive woman who has a lot to offer as well, and although I don't want to lose my H, I also know that I would eventually heal and find someone. I just don't think I will ever marry again!!!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I am not D'd, my H and I are still married, but I was married before for a long time. My XH and I did everything we were supposed to in terms of C, IC, MC, all of the above, and in the end, we both realized it was better that we split. I care about him, but don't love him, and that feeling is mutual. But I think it is a human emotion to be a little envious when your X is having a great time and you feel like something the cat dragged in!!! I keep remembering that whenever I see my H, that it is the positive that draws them back...
I don't think it is arrogant at all, its self confidence. I consider myself an attractive woman who has a lot to offer as well, and although I don't want to lose my H, I also know that I would eventually heal and find someone. I just don't think I will ever marry again!!!
Thanks for that. I don't really know what to say other than what i have update so far. Funny thing this morning, i walked into "w's" room and she was in the bathroom getting ready for work. Normally she closes the door, this morning she didn't , i walked in to ask her a question, and there she was naked in all her glory! I just said'' oops sorry i didn't know" funny thing is she didn't run to close the door, she just laughed.. weird stuff
She is getting comfortable...that is also a good sign!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
