SHE started the apartment thing. I have TOLD her that I don't want her to leave. I have told her to end things with OM. She knows what I want.

To me, to ask for the no contact, trasparency thing, it will be me controlling her. I fully take it that she is just telling me what I want to hear. I am not playing head games with her. I have tried and tried.

I did not make her lunch. I made my lunch. I put some grapes in a baggie for me and made one for her, too. That was all I did.

As far as I'm concerned, your right, not other reason for her to leave.

Your telling me to ask her things that I have already asked. I can't MAKE her do anything. SHE has to want to do it.

She tells me she doesn't have the feelings for me anymore. That she no longer wants what we have. We are going through financial hell this past year. One thing after another. It is just non stop. She wants a better life. She told me this Friday night. She is protecting her heart from ME! I couldn't believe she told me this.

I give her my best. Always. I get her to come back around. We reconnect. Enjoy each others company. Totally because of my efforts. I continue the fight. Over and over. I fight and I fight and I fight to try to make her see. Ya'll see it. She still sees him. Tells him she loves him. Has lunch with him. She still plans the move.

Something goes wrong at home. A dose of reality, she withdraws. Treats me like sh** to justify herself. She still plans the move.

Either way we are to each other, she is hell bent on the move.

I wish YOU could talk to her.


Me 47, WW 38
SS18, D15, D10

Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08

"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."