I see that I have grown.. no doubt about that . but I also see that when my H is around and I am being his WIFE. I am more focused on him than me. And when he is gone ... I cant stop thinking about ways to be sexual with him. IE~ Wink at him and touch myself inappropriately with a come hither look. Like a seductive Woman. And then **** the living daylights out of him. Not everyday , but more often than not.
So I am much "better" but how do I further turn off this switch?
I wanna just be the real raw, sensual , seductive, fun , daring unpredictable me. Like I was when we met. I get glimpses of it more when he isnt here and I think about him. WTF? I used to be real bad... when he was home I went on full GOOD WIFE MODE. Stepford WIFE like .. cooking , cleaning... everything but what really I need or my H needed. YUck..... Help~
My H has been gone for a few days and I have had time to really think this thru. Any thoughts would be so appreciated... ~Ali
