Bring on the Rain - Part 3

[SueS]

Oh Sheila!! Thanks for responding so quickly. I'm sitting here at my desk with tears, but feeling so angry. He acts as if he's done no wrong. As if I've never reached out to him at all. As if I've never admitted my own mistakes.

Your thoughts (and Saffie's) that he wants to move with are right. I didn't get a chance to post about the weekend.

On Friday, H got home and barely said a word to us. On Sat. he got up and went to work. D4 told him that we were going to a picnic. He just mumbled something to her & walked out. He called on Sat. and in a snotty tone asked if we needed anything from the store. When we got home, he was headed to the pool. D4 told him that we were going to visit a friend of mine that just had a baby. He said...Have fun & walked away. D4 and I got home about 11:00 and went right to sleep. I heard H walk into the bedroom, saw that D4 was in bed with me, walked out and slammed the bedroom door shut.

On Sun. morning we got up to find H getting ready to leave. I asked what he was up to for the day. He would not respond. Finally he snapped.....what do you care? He told me he was going golfing. He called later in the day as happy as could be. When he got home, he acted all nice & flirty. I didn't bite. He got mad. He made some comment about why I don't like him to touch me. I said...H, you are involved with someone else. Then I asked if he knew where he was going or what he was doing. He said....Does this mean you don't want me to go with you? I said, H, you're the one that pushed me and pushed me to get out and find my own place. I did that. Then D4 interrupted us. When she walked out of the room, H quickly changed the subject to what to have for dinner.

This morning I called to ask him to remember to write me a check for daycare. His response.....Well, what am I going to get. My response was.....Ah, I paid daycare for you. He got angry. He's not getting what he wants and his pissed. Hence, the rotten email blaming me for everythng.

You know, I don't want this! As crappy as he's been to me, I just want to get along with him. I just want to go my way & have him go his. This is what he wanted. Why is he angry that I'm ready to do that?

SueS