I'm trying hard to get myself into a place where I am letting go of my H and my M - expecting nothing, just waiting to see what will happen. Despite my efforts, I still find myself flailing around emotionally - up, down, all over the place - and thinking about the two 'real' conversations we've had in the past few weeks is not helping, as I keep remembering all the things I said that I shouldn't have said.
Hi Ingrid,
I've been away for awhile, so I was sad to read that your h is back to thinking about moving out. Despite your backslide for a couple of days, it sounds like you're back on track DBing. Starting a new GAL activity like kayaking is a great idea to keep your mind off of the sitch as much as possible.
Whenever you're unsure about doing something R-related, like sending that email or bringing up a difficult subject, make yourself wait 24 or 48 hours. Come here, post about it, vent away, but don't do it until you've had some time to let your feeling settle. I know how hard it is to do that, but I've been doing a better job of it over the last few months. If I can do it, anyone can!
