I need to start out with something that just came in. H just sent me an email putting full blame on me for the situation. I just don't know how to respond.
This is what he said.......... Why do you not want me to touch you? You have created this situation. This started 7 years ago. Whether it is you don't know how or want to or don't think I want you to. You show me no attention, affection. (and if you do touch me, it's like I've got the plague, if you do touch it's like a wet noodle) When was the last time you initiated anything? You have never said a word about my losing all this weight, working out (looking quite buff)
In the year and a half I was at the phone bank, did you ever once compliment me about taking care of D4 and keeping the apt. up, making your lunch, having dinner basically ready, etc.. All you did was make excuses. "Oh our schedules" "it's not you, it's me" Blah-blah-blah. In the 3 years we have been up here I have asked if your feelings for me are what they used to be- You have never answered the question. Yes, No-Maybe.
SO whatever - you created this - you pushed me away. I don't care what you told your friands and family (that I've strayed, and it's all my fault), D4 however Will Be Told the Truth.
This is obviously what You've wanted, so you are getting iT. Later
This from a man who hasn't wanted to talk about anything with me. I asked him for chances, to spend time together....and was told no. I was told that he's in love with someone else and that we weren't meant to be together for the rest of our lives.
How do I respond?
ME: 42, H: 42, D6 Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs. Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009 Status: Working on it day by day