Really... How long does it take?

[limbo]

I think unfortunately there never will be the true trust again, it will be a modified version. It wount be the unquestionable trust that I know I had before.
My H and the ow used to go to lunch all the time, and I never thought anything of it, I trusted him without question...but that will never be again.
I think its more of a question of us coming to terms with that, and healing our hearts. Once we can heal somewhat then we may feel more secure.
It has been almost 2 years since the first bomb for me, and probably almost a year since things have returned to "normal".
I still deal with alot of the questions and concerns that you have, and the only thing I can say is give it time...and allow yourself all the time you need, don't put pressure on yourself to be all better right away, because that wount help in the long run!