tie in also we (me and the kids) went to my best friends' kids' birthday yesterday. big family thing that we used to do together. made me feel lonely and a little sad that she wasn't with us....and how much my life has changed in the last 5 months. I can't believe it'll be 5 months wednesday since the bomb was dropped. had i known then what i know now......ugh. can't dwell on that too much. it'll only make me upset more. i've really only been DBing since Memorial Day...and things really have improved between my W and I. But i'm so anxious and doubtful of myself that i miss the little things...the smiles (which i do get frequently)..the little things when we talk on the phone.. I'm just afraid I've lost her forever....and i shouldn't be.
ME:32 WAW:31 D #1: 3.5 D #2: 2 Together: 13 M:6 Bomb Dropped: 2/15/08 Sep legally: 6/18/08
"Tommorrow there'll be sunshine, and all this darkness past..." -Bruce Springsteen Land of Hope and Dreams
