Dancing With Myself

[redhottie]

I am at a point of frustration and confusion right now. I am trying to be strong. Trying to face the fact that my M is over and move on. The problem is I still love my DAM of an H. I can't seem to detach and I know part of that is for lack of effort. I think the biggest thing keeping me from detaching is that I don't think H really tried to save the M. H has professed that he tried working on the M in the past, but I wasn't trying.

As far as trying to move on...the Ds and I went to look at houses yesterday. H went along and gave his opinions. His favorite was not the same as our's. But that is ok. I am thinking about bidding on one house, but I am scared to death. I know I can do it finacially, but it will be tight. H was starting to run through his finances and keeping this house and I think he started feeling sorry for himself. I wanted to say it doesnt' have to be that way but I didn't. All I did yesterday when talking to H was talk about moving and finances.