New to this forum and need help..

[tmarie]

Well his office is cleaned... When he came home I was on the PC talking to a girl friend... H was interested in what I was doing...sat with me and played with the dog, chit chat.. but I continued my online conversation..not ingoring H just not initating..after a while 15-20 minutes he left to watch tv w/D14, I decided to decompress so I went for a soak in the tub...guess who needs something in the bathroom - (we have 3) but I locked the door... when I emerged from my very relaxing soak ALONE he had the bed turned down... lights off, I made a comment something like "Oh your in bed already" and he said yeah are you coming? (I was gathering a few things.) I wasn't tired.. so I grabbed my pc and decided to watch a little tv... I think he expected me to go to bed... so I Didn't.. Here I sit...

I feel like have a little bit of control here.. I may be getting over confident..

The last few weeks have been hell for me and alot of others on this board... But watching others here go through all of these stages has been so helpful..I have learned so much about myself and I am really liking the person I continue to become... Its a shame that my sense of selfworth is coming from a sad situation. I wonder if H is finding himself too...I really hope that he does..

Off to bed...
Goodnight to all..
t