WAW is full steam ahead

[LosingSunshine]

So today was a good day. I spent the morning with the kids while the W was out and then left to let her have some quality time with them for the first time since the sitch began. I just got back from a day of vegging, shopping, golfing, eating out and talking with friends...they no everything and still can't connect the dots nor can I.

I am still dark and not wearing my ring. The first full day of both and the 2nd of being dark. It feels like I am being rude. It feels unnatural but I will continue for awhile to see what happens.

Made plans with old friends for when I am Bach in DC prior to going to the OBX. Should be fun and I am really looking forward to it.

Going to spend some time this week reflecting on who I am. Who is and who was Chris. He's here somewhere and need to make sure he's all out and not hiding deep inside me. Once found I plan to draw him out.

Still trying to figure out how to outshine the lifestyle that my W is getting involved with and quite potentially the need to outshine a OW since that is what it looks like. Can anyone help me with this?


I have my 180s still going and now I am dark given the full throttle for D. Her LL is acts of service which my 180 with the kids and chores etc will be touching but am at a loss0outside of being a good daddy, going back to church with kids and being a stable person.

Chris