It should get better, its the seeing her every morning before work, then seeing her leave everynight that's driving me crazy.
I know we will have to keep in touch because of the kids but at least when school starts for the kids, I'll only have to see her once every week at the most.
This comming and going everyday is whats getting to me. Like I lose her over and over and over, I know once I step in the door she is out the other and back to OM or what ever she wants to do.
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
It should get better, its the seeing her every morning before work, then seeing her leave everynight that's driving me crazy.
I think it will get easier for you, too. I just hate seeing my H anymore. I keep wishing I could move, he would disappear, etc. And b/c of the kids we see each other usually a couple times a week and the emails are never-ending too. This is horrible but if I ever get remarried I hope we have to move or something; I couldn't purposely move away from H because of the kids, but it would be wonderful!!! Karen
Thanks for understanding Karen, because I never see W on weekends, its great and once summer is over I'll only see W every other weekend and possibly when kids have games (basketball, soccer, etc)
D9 game last night got rained out, so all the moms and dads with their kids went up to bar where W works. I called W in the morning to warn her that we were comming up, so she didn't get suprised. She said what do you think I'm doing up there. I said I don't know I just didn't want you to be suprised when we walked in. I thought to myself, I don't know what you do anymore you have your own life.
We all had dinner and a couple of drinks. I had a great time, kids didn't bother W, she was working behind the bar and I kept the kids away from her. I was sitting with the moms and dads having a great time, W didn't talk to me or even say good bye when we left, she did hug and kiss the kids goodbye.
I didn't have my wedding ring (took it off awhile ago) and anyone who paid any attention could see we were not talking to each other or even acknowledging each other. W seemd a little upset who knows for what reason now.
Today is clean-up day at the house, and the kids and myself were invited to a BBQ this afternoon. - Life goes on
FYI: Leaving for Richmond VA for work Sunday night and I'll be home Tuesday
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
My H went through that phase where he didn't want people to know what was going on. But now he isn't really speaking to me at all (which is annoying just a few days before he moves out because I have moving out questions to ask him).
Jeff I still think it sounds like you are doing so WELL!
Me-31 H-38 M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs No kids Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06 Found out about OW 12-24-07 Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08 OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08 OW is back 4-19-08 H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08 Filed for divorce 6-5-08 Divorced 7-2-08
Feeling kind of melancholy today, found a 2006 Valentine Day card from W in my brief case - packing for Richmond VA work trip.
Card said "be mine" how much has changed since then.
Quote:
lwb: life goes on doesn't it - We are slowly learning to enjoy it again
Yes it does, I'm slowly learning to move on, one thing I miss the most, is sharing my life with someone. Just the little stuff, the talks, doing stuff together, etc.
Thanks for checking in on me Sara and lwb, everyone says time heals all wounds, I sure hope it heals my broken heart.
I still cannot believe all this WAW, OM, A, D it just seems so strange, boy I do need some time to get over all this crap in my life. I'm soooo sorry for everyone here, I really know how much you all have been hurt, I know how bad it feels.
Cannot wait to get back from my trip and see my kids, W has them at the pool right now and she will be staying with them at my house until I get back Tuesday afternoon.
My last post until Tuesday - See you all later, thinking of all of you
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
Finding the old cards is tough. Not too long ago I found 2 "Happy birthday to my wife" cards that had something along the lines of "I love you and I can't picture my life without you" written on the inside. Then I found a paper H had written for a college class about his life and he had a whole page about me and how much our marriage means to him. Shocking how so much can change in a remotely short time (just a few years).
Take the time and dont' worry about what is going on at home.
Sara
Me-31 H-38 M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs No kids Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06 Found out about OW 12-24-07 Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08 OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08 OW is back 4-19-08 H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08 Filed for divorce 6-5-08 Divorced 7-2-08
