WOW!! progress w H? Keeping my PMA

[pisces9]

well we talked today about our house finally moving along- very brief...told him i went hiking and he asked where, etc. then he talked about his workouts, etc...then i said so what are your plans today- he said this and that...he said what about you- i said lunch and this and that....but i didnt ask him to do anything bc i dont want to pursue him after our discussion ...he seemed to back away...plus the door was opened by me and he could have asked but he didnt...i think he is retreating still.

i do know that he told his friend that the grass isnt greener...so he is reaching out to his friends now....

i am scerd for some reaswon- im sad he didnt ask me to meet up with him...oh well..im sure he will sooner or later...this just gets odl after a while..this game.

im ok overall and i had a great hike and vent session with my friend today- its just overwhelming sometimes and it fees like it goes on forever...

also- our anniversary is next monday and i had mentioned that we get together for it in an email (email had other stuff too)....i left it low key (per my db coach)....and he replied to the email but not that part...so i will not say anything about it again and it makes me bummed...

oh well- it will all be ok.