I just don't know. I'm glad Retrouvaille is next weekend because we really need something and some direction. I feel like we are both just going through the motions. Today is a beautiful day out. We got up, went to church all together, came home, had lunch, and took a hour long bike around the lake. Anyone looking at us would think "what a great family". But, little do they know, we are empty shells inside. Day to day. Week to week. Month to month. I see the good in my H...there is LOTS of it. I would miss the great way he is, I would miss the way I want my family, and I would miss my life as I know it....but I am still so empty. I hope I can get some spark for this man.
