re: your posts a couple of days back, just want to add my voice to say don't stop writing and posting. I've been in that blank kind of dead space lately too. The stuff about W. telling you about going out to a movie with a mutual friend must have been kind of tough to hear. I find it very hard to know what the boundaries are / should be anymore. It's painful to hear of the WAS getting on with life without us.
I hope you have some luck with thank blinking cursor starting to move soon. I guess it will when it is ready.
Hope you have a better day today and keep posting.