Meeting WAS for first time. Any advice?

[christarn]

"Thanks for the virtual hugs. Some days I really need them."

no problem, maxp, there are days i need them as well!

death compounds this sitch two fold...both of my parents past before H and I were married...I don't think I had even started my grieving process...their death played into our R/M hugely....I expected my H to treat me like my dad treated me, that was unfair to him (H)

"How is your sitch? Do you want to reconcile? Is your H throwing your behaviour back at you?"

my sitch, is a "crazy mess!!" I want to reconcile, he wants to one minute, the next he wants a D....yes he throws all of this in my face...all of this is my fault, we wouldn't be "here" if I wouldn't have walked, I have no one to blame but myself, he brings up events that happend years before we were married...i just hold on tight, because i never know where the rollar coaster is going to take me next! yes, I do want to reconcile, will I wait forever, good question, had someone said last year at this time we would be further away from working things out this year at this time, I would have probably said, hand over the papers...but here I am today...standing strong, with hope that with God anything is possible.

Your sitch hit the fan about the same time mine did. you understand the waiting thing. My H says he can't afford atty, I would drown him BS paper work....even though he has an atty on retainer...that makes no sense to me?

when are you meeting?

christa