toruble on the the lake erie shore...#4!

[Neilh23]

i think i'm beginning to understand why i'm so impatient..

i want this pain to go away.....well, this feeling of emptiness. I just want to hold her and say, "look, i'm sorry. I am changing...i'm going to be better. Won't you believe me?"

Yet at the same time, i know that's not what she wants to hear. She wnats to see things changing. and she's givin me some hope

i think one of my LL's is words of affirmation...that's why this is so difficult for me to do...... i want and need her affirmation (like actually tell me) that this is a good thing and she likes what she's seeing.
ugh.