The week flew by. I was so busy with work and the kids that I really didn't have time to think of H. I didn't hear much from H during the week. He called me friday at work to check in and see what was going on.
I found out (I really can't say how...in case he found me here again) that he spent our anniversary at a hotel. It wasn't via snooping but unfortunately this info fell into my lap. It makes me ill....Why is he spending father's day, our anniversary...important days in a hotel with MOW (or whoever). It is so sad.
Not to mention the fact that he is spending hundreds of dollars on hotel rooms and I am struggling to put food on the table for the kids. My father had to buy us groceries this week. It makes me feel so awful.
So, I guess he is medicating his depression. Still in replay. And the withdrawal....well that is perhaps time he is spending in contact with someone else. I know....analizing too much.
He came by for a little bit yesterday. D13 and I were by the pool relaxing. He came and sat in the corner of our pool patio in the shade. He fell asleep sitting up in the chair. He didn't have much to say while he was here. He kept looking around at things in the yard and by the pool.
I had to wonder if he was thinking of the good times we had by the pool or if he was feeling guilty because d13 loves the house and pool and he is trying to sell it. Who knows.
I am bracing myself though. When things are going well for him and MOW...I know she pushes him to do thing...i.e. the sale of the house; filing the D papers, etc. I know my H too well. He does nothing like that on his own...he need someone to tell him what to do.
So, I have vented my thoughts and feelings here. I hope that that will keep them out of my head.D13 is having a friend over today and I want to get some stuff done. H won't be by as he said he is bartending I private party. Probably a lie. He said he wouldn't see d13 at all today. If he was truly working he would have stopped by before or after to see her. Especially since he won't see her next weekend as he is working and she has a softball tourny.
Whatever.
Thanks for letting me vent. I am truly getting so sick of this. A
